jammie's jarful

posted by jammie @ 10:23 AM 7 comments

romancing the book.

Armed with a debit card in Liberty Books is my nightmare- one that I indulge myself in every few days. It was bad enough that the ATm was close by at Park Towers but now that they accept the debit card in the shop itslef, I have physically keep myself from picking up random (and specific) books off the shelf in excitement over the fresh, newly printed covers which beckon to me whispering "buy meee, buy meee."

K does his best to veer me away from Liberty (he is under strict orders of course), but somehow a smiel from me, wheedling at first insistent soon after, and I find myself in book heaven. How can someone NOT spend hours looking at book titles, browsing through new ones and simply rereading favourite paragraphs from old ones while standing right there? It's like there is someone tangible force alive in there. Maybe they put drugs in their books.

Most happy with my buy today, which i didn't even feel with a quick swipe of my debit card (i don't believe in credit cards yet), I'm writing right now prolonging the anticipation till I get my time alone with My New Book. The excitement shimmers thourhg me, as I look ahead to several hours of gratification and blocking out the world, when it will finally be just the two of us.

posted by jammie @ 10:55 AM 14 comments

winter chai

garam garam chai ka mug in the cold cold winter air,
sitting outdoors watching People
Laugh,
Talk,
Walk,
Play
and to be in
no rush
to be anywhere particular
anytime soon.

posted by jammie @ 1:15 PM 16 comments

for god's sake, grow up.

Allow Events to Change You:
You have to be willing to grow.
Growth is different from something that happens to you.
You produce it. You live it.
The prerequisites for growth:
the openness to experience events
and the willingness to be changed by them.
—Bruce Mau, designer

posted by jammie @ 4:50 AM 8 comments

flipping the override switch

it builds up gradually, this sense of having "had enough".
circumstances, people, words all stack up as the patience level falls and your emotional intelligence gives way. most of the time i prefer to believe that i am an evolving indivdual who perceives each situation in isolation, judging what im required to do as a result of clear thinking and some emotional weightage but lately i have come to realize that the more you believe in personal growth, the more people around you tend to expect you to "always understand". i am fast coming to the conclusion that "living" life does not always involve being removed enough from a situaion to be able to do what's best for all concerned and feeling superior to a confrontation. sometimes it requires you to be in the hotseat, making decisions that might hurt, making calls that might be risky and in essence taking a side that might bring about some kind of change. a submerged living, where you want to teeter on the brink of 2 takes is sometimes the most cowardly kind of existence, one that shows that you don't actually have a stance at all. and personally, at 28, that kind of living is simply not good enough.

posted by jammie @ 3:28 AM 7 comments

ringing in the new

somebody wise once said that even the most mundane of things turn out seeming special by the presence of one important person. so i will consider myself lucky to have rung in 2006 surrounded by not one but several people who are very very important in my life. when you bring it down to the basics, isn't that what life is really about? happy new year everyone. may 2006 be special for all of us.

posted by jammie @ 11:20 AM 5 comments